So maybe it made me the bigger person, but there are days my anger gets the better of me and I think I should have hung them all out to dry. And why not? When I think about my own private island, my 100-acre woods, owning the Taj Mahal? Making people accountable? Preventing similar incidents from happening to others? At the time, I was so worried about ruining my father's career because the truth is, he lied. He abused his power. What he did carried consequences.
"IMPORTANT NOTICE: ANY PERSON
WHO PROVIDES ANY FALSE INFORMATION ON PURPOSE WHEN HE COMPLETES THIS FORM MAY BE
SUBJECT TO CRIMINAL PROSECUTION AND MAY FACE CRIMINAL PENALTIES INCLUDING
CONVICTION OF A MISDEMEANOR."
Yet, I worried about ruining his career. WTF? Not even two years after the incident he retired. Hindsight, baby, hindsight...
Yet, I stop to think...
Did he care about what his actions could have done to MY career? Did he care about what he was doing to me as person? Did he care enough to stop, listen and truly help me?
And truly, the lawsuit wouldn't have been against him--it would have been against The Meadows; their crisis worker (that I had previously supervised, had fired AND IS STILL jacking up the mental health field with her incompetence) that seriously screwed up; her supervisor that signed her name to everything (INCOMPETENT) and was taken in by the badge and power of my father...
Yet, it would have hurt his career and effected his credibility...
Hindsight. Remember hindsight. Stop. Breathe. Let it go. It has been two and a half years. It is in the past. You can not change it. It is over. The statute of limitations is two years. Why won't you move on???
Could you have mentally handled a trial? No. Two and a half years after the fact--your father's emails crushed and broke you--even after the time and healing. How would it have felt to be publicly put on trial and have to hear him make all those statements about you, to have them publicized and to have your person be judged in a court of law?
You VS Him.
He is the law. What are you???
Yet, there is a small voice of reason: What about all of the other people he has harassed through the years? The others that were nobodies and lost because he is the law and an upstanding citizen? How many stories have you heard through the years about him harassing people, trespassing on their property, and prosecuting them? How many times has he stood and lied? You had a chance to bring some sort of justice to the world. You had an opportunity to fight back. You could have been a voice for those individuals and you blew it.
How many times have you been beat up, spit upon and harassed because he is your father? How many times have you physically paid because he arrested someone? You, yourself, went through the treatment he offers to "criminals" and you did nothing. You cried because he hurt your feelings. You hid and licked your wounds. You could have nailed him to the very cross that he hung for you. Yet you worried about what would happen to his job, his credibility, his soul. You fool.
So maybe you think his days of terrorizing others are over now that he has retired? That none of this matters? Seems logical...
This story's conclusion at a later date...
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